Summer scenes

I sit and watch this movie like summer scenes.
It's fleeting like the birds flapping wings.
He played the sounds I sent
and said he never heard this, but he'll love this song cause it reminds him of me.
I took my bag and said "there's no place like home".
You got up faster than you used to.
You said, that I'm rare type of mind, that you always liked in people.
And I pictured us building our home.
But you said you don't know.

Remember how I pointed at the couple in store.
I asked if you want to grow old with me.
A few days later all my friends hold me up
Cause I say all I want is to die in my sleep.

I'm wandering around streets deep in the night.
Recording huge amount of the voicemails.
I thought about how you said
you proposed to keep her for the whole life, but then replaced me in four autumn days.
Under the rays.

Then the rain came
And you said our events should go through storm.
I said wedding will also be watered.
There's the silence that you say I can consider the answer,
and the echoes, and you know I'll be haunted, but you opened your car door till you finally left us
on the benches in backyard in twelfth of
October when I said my mind now is painless, cause I taught myself lessons.

The last time I was thinking it over.
And I think I ran out of the words.
The seasons change and so do I so it means,
that it seems to me that now I know.

And you remember every detail I said to you.
You remember the place where we walked then.
You say the moon became your own Sun and I said you complicate simple things.
But you used to stop to kiss me just like we've been
together for the half of our lives.
And I was sure the circle has closed cause to me you mean everything.
You used to be my summer home.
But now I don't know


So the nightmares
were the only escape from the torture.
My anxiety grows in a seconds as I see as you're typing some message
Cause I know what is in the end of this passage .
"I'm sorry, but but I think it's the end"
"It was just sweet summer scenes".


And I still wander around the street in the dark
The streetlights went to stand in the lines
It seems I hear them say that I'll be okay someday
And I say I think I am already fine.

"You know I'm not the one to protect you from the real problems you'll have to face.
I overestimated my strength and I have to fix my life, so it's better if I leave with no trace"
But I remember your favorite flavors of marmalade, and the lip balm you gave me on the second date.
I wonder what you would give me as a present on New Years Eve, but I i know I'll never get to know.
Since you don't know


You said you love my parents like your own.
You used to call my mother mother-in-law.
We laughed about it on the backyard there, said you'll give me a ring in a wonderful place.
And then I stitch the flesh of us on the raw.
Now I change my room to erase all the memories .
and I excluded myself from the time I thought was unforgettable,
like the trackers apps I have uninstalled.
Cause you didn't know.

I go back home, I didn't say everything I wanted to, cause there was no chance
I think you turned your head to look in the sideway mirror
and I pictured us watching late TV shows.
But you said you don't know