A Love Letter to Eternity

My Dearest M.,

You always rise to the occasion — you always do. My strong and kind one, my sweet and gentle one, my handsome, amazing lover. You’ve always been the better one between us — the one with more depth, more wisdom. You see so much, especially the good in me that no one else notices. And I hold on to that for dear life, just for you.

Change doesn’t come easily to me, and I can’t even begin to express how much it means that you accept me just as I am — with all my flaws, weaknesses, and quirks. I wish I could give you everything — my life, every breath, every word— because it’s all for you. I hold your hands, kiss them, and press your palms to my cheeks, just needing to feel you close.

Remember 1999? I had just started as an analyst at that company (can you believe it? I actually checked, and they're still at the same address), and you were already working there. Everything moved so fast… we couldn’t keep our hands off each other at work. That lunchtime kiss in the break room, and how we had to quickly pull away when someone walked in, pretending to be casually chatting, our faces flushed and hearts racing. We were just trying to keep it "straight" at work, but off the clock…, well, you know how it goes…

And those late-night drives around the city —just you and me, windows down, the world blurring by. We’d pull over in hidden spots, lost in each other, and the anticipation of being discovered made every kiss and touch even more electrifying.

I remember that night when we finally laid our feelings bare. We pulled over to some random spot under a flimsy excuse, and when I turned to you, everything just clicked. You looked at me with such intense sincerity, eyes full of longing. You touched my hand, your breath coming in shallow, uneven gasps. You said, "This is the first time I’ve felt anything like this. I’m not quite sure what’s happening, but I think I’m falling in love with you. What do you think about all of this?" You were so nervous and genuine, your voice trembling just slightly.

I looked at you, seeing how vulnerable and open you were, and I said, "What do I think? I’m madly in love with you. When I saw you back then…" And before I could finish, you pulled me into a kiss that was both urgent and tender. And in that moment, it felt like the Universe had just rearranged itself.

All those feelings… they’re still here. After all these years, it feels like we’re still those silly, lovesick kids, completely into each other. Sometimes when I look at you, it takes my breath away. There are moments when I’m so overwhelmed with love for you that I can barely speak. Sometimes I want you so much it hurts. I never knew I could feel this way, never knew I was capable of loving someone like this. You’re a gift from heaven, my greatest joy, my obsession, my pride. I’m always discovering new things about you, learning from you, and finding myself through you.

If I could find the right words to express how I feel, I would, but it’s beyond words. It’s bigger than the Universe — let it keep expanding, just like my love for you. I love you more than life itself.

Happy 48th birthday, my love. We’re finally the same age :)

Forever and always,
Sasha

September 3, 2024


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