Never Have I Ever

If I had to choose, then I'd never
pick the phone up, when you call.
Though you couldn't be less this clever,
turned the shit into a tale's tall.
I've been anything, but a halfwit.
You've been blinded by your flair,
but if you never meant, why you did it?
You've just ignored my rain.

All the walls went crumbling.
Never have I ever
and I'll never be myself.

I'd never double cross my own peace,
never change my own home to place that feels like the prison,
but I've been
wasted by him, who said he knows all the reasons.
Time's flown and I see, now that I'm sick I know, that I won't get better.
Never thought that I'd never say, that I never...

Never have I ever seen flowers, that would die in a second.
Got awake by your coldest shower,
like I've never been reckoned.
Looked at me from highest of ridges,
as if I'm benchmark of burden.
Bet a brick to London and bridges.
You'd better marry that bottle of bourbon.

You're the pit with sharpest blades.
Never have I ever
and I'll never have my peace.

You're the damn clag in my lungs.
Never have I ever,
you're the cold war of my tugs.

You're the pit with sharpest blades.
Never have I ever,
break the handcuffs off my hands.

I'd never double cross my own peace,
never change my own home to place that feels like the prison,
but I've been
wasted by him, who said he knows all the reasons.
Time's flown and I see, now that I'm sick -
I know, that I won't get better.
Never thought, that I'd never say, that I never...

6 years of storm
infliction of horrid pain.
The time has gone, your face still stealing all the lights.
Still screaming in the night.
Can't close my eyes, my pages still salt tear stained.
The heart won't stop, till you won't fade before my sight.
I'm screaming through your night.

They said past is the past, but I'd better be dead.
This 6 years you still harrow my lacerate head.
They say "let it go and let bygones be bygones".
Take that martyrized time back to prevent that hurt.

Just kill my dreams,
push me to battlefield,
fell on my knees,
nineteens were not enough to die in the rain of acid lies.
The bathroom light, the bedroom is pool of tears.
I wish there would be
someone who'd end that agonize.
I still hear my rending cries.

Just kill my dreams,
push me to battlefield,
fell on my knees,
nineteens were not worth to die in the rain of acid lies.
The bathroom light, the bedroom is pool of tears.
I wish there would be
someone who'd end that agonize.
I still hear my rending cries.