shield

to M.

Since you came back into my life, my greatest wish has been to protect you from the harsh reality and the cruelty of this world. I want to be the one who watches over you, who cares for you, and keeps you safe from all this crap.

You’re incredibly strong, and I know you’d handle things just fine on your own, but I want to be your shield. A shield for my honest and courageous warrior. (Yeah, I know, I don’t usually get into this kind of pretentious bullshit, but believe me, I’m not messing around now.)

Sometimes, I find myself thinking that I don’t deserve you, honestly. You probably hoped things would be different. But I keep screwing up; I’m just that kind of jerk.

I realize I can be rough around the edges, and I might cause you pain at times. We’re in this phase of getting to know each other again, and I’m definitely not the same person I was at 23.

Life hasn’t been kind to me; it’s been quite a b…., to be honest. And you… You seem to be the same as ever.

So… Just so you know, I love you more than anything. Yeah, I’m a sinner – might as well come clean about it. But I’m still your favorite bad boy, aren’t I?