Catherina

Hey, Catherina,
don't you fool yourself, saying things you don't mean?
You were outnumbered,
you don't hide your face,
you're leaving this place and the medicine.

You don't trust your gut, you had it down to a science.
You keep your mind wide open,
your eyes still shine.
You know, that I looked back
down right at you now.

You see, I still think of your gingette hair,
but you don't know about me.

Sometimes never's better, than making too late.
You have to admit - you lied to your own heart,
and if you don't pretend - you don't betray your old pretty ways
you chose from the very start.
Catherina?

Oh, in your late dreams
you're the queen,
where you don't play, if you wouldn't win.
Oh, but now my name screams the medicine.

Bonjour, Catherina,
don't you ever regret you were wrong,
when it was easy
to wake for the school,
so they could call you this cool
and the smartest geek?
So now, Catherina,
you're ain't close to prima.
So don't you miss you spinning on your tiptoes like s ballerina?
Guess you don't,
you turned off all the flashing lights.
I should've known
you'll stop CPR this time...

They say it's too late, when it's all your own fault.
The beauty's in pain and the pain is the thing you fought,
but you just have pretended, you betrayed your old graceful ways,
my Catherina.

Salut, Catherina,
you'll find me to leave here a scar,
then you're fading away,
when you're looking my way
eyes spewed blueish light.
So, Catherina,
let me count all the reasons,
why you're better off, than all these tiny people pleasers,
but I'll say: "there's no way, you're not one of them".
I'll go through NICU's doors you slammed,
and you never knew true pain I get used to this days.
There's the heart in your eyes,
when you think of the ambulance.
 
So, bye, Catherina,
your blue nails and your earrings.
My spotlights never reach to your old dress up there in bleachers.
And your improv, and my mad love,
I forget it...