Do you want me to leave your life forever?!

Do you want me to leave your life forever?!
(Author - Yana Lorano-Rulskaya).
“Dedicated to my most beloved Man in the whole Universe! The love of my life, -D.-J.K.D., is about you,like many of my other poems about you!”…
 
 “Do you want me to leave your life forever?!”
 
 Do you want me to leave,
 your life forever?!
 Do you want me to leave,
 forever,do you want me?!
 Do you want me to leave,
 my life for good?
 If you want,don't see me anymore,
 Or you won't want to hear me,
 So that I never,
 call or write to you,
 Do you want me to leave,
 your life forever?
 
 Do you want me to jump,
 from our balcony?
 If you want,we can hit you in the throat,
 with a knife, if you want?!
 I can choke on a tiny,
 one on purpose,if you want?!
 Or maybe you want to jump out,
 of the window in the evening?!
 What do you want?...
 Answer,let me know,tell me,
 If necessary,you shout,
 let it be rude,
 But,I beg you,please don’t,be silent!
 
 Do you want me to hang,
 up in a cold noose?
 Or maybe you want to eat,
 some pills,do you want?!
 Maybe I should be under,
 the horse’s hooves,do you want?!
 Or maybe I’ll throw myself,
 under the car,if you want?!
 Tell me what you want?…
 Please let me know,don't be silent,
 Make mayhem,shout,
 Do something,don't be silent.
 If you want,we’ll break all,
 the dishes with you,
 So that it becomes noisy in this apartment,
 The main thing is to say what you want
 Don’t be silent,my dear!…
 
 Do you want me to poison myself with,
 some herb or tincture,do you want?!
 Maybe you want me to drown,
 myself in the lake,do you?!
 Do you want an electric shock,
 to kill me,do you want it?!
 Or maybe a sharp lightning strike,
 do you want it?!
 You're annoying with your silence,
 You've already finished me,
 off a long time ago,
 At least again,the Italian scandal caused,
 Or started a violent fight,
 He showed me his personal “I”!
 
 Do you want me to perish,
 in the river or the sea?
 Or I’ll open the veins in,
 warm water,if you want?!
 Maybe I should jump off the roof,
 of a high-rise building,do you want?!
 Or somewhere in the lion's cage,
 Maybe I’ll go see the tiger,if you want?!
 How you piss me off with,
 your bestial behavior,
 I would take it by force,
 in my strong vice,
 I would press,squeeze,hug everything,
 I want it,I don’t want it,I kissed it,
 And he took me in his strong arms,
 And what you are doing is just bastard,
 After all,you know how much I hate,
 When your beloved is silent!…
 
 Do you want me to put a bullet,
 in your temple or in your forehead?
 Maybe I’ll stab a knife,
 into my unhappy heart,if you want?!
 Do you want me to throw myself,
 into the mouth of a crocodile while on vacation?
 Maybe I'll cover myself all in kerosene,
 Would you like to strike a match?!
 Or I’ll inject myself with,
 a horse dose,do you want?!
 Only you,only you,only you,
 are allowed everything,dear,
 Without you and your voice,
 I’m dying, beloved,
 I only forgave you,
 And I will forever forgive for everything,
 I won't allow anyone else to do such tricks.
 Only you can do everything as you want,
 Tell me what you want,darling,just tell me?
 Let me know,speak in any way,
 I beg you,I beg you,just don’t be silent,
 Even face to face in words,
 At least write,at least call,
 I don't care, I don't care anymore,
 Just talk to me,my love!…
 
 Do whatever you want with me!
 Do you want me to do it to myself?
 I'll get rid of you now,
 If you don't need me anymore,
 If you're already so tired of me!
 And behave in cold blood,quickly and callously,
 I will save you from these cruel torments,
 I will get rid of unbearable suffering,
 That they're eating me up from the inside.
 It's better to make a,
 decision right away and leave,
 Why try it all again,
 Non-reciprocity, irresponsibility,
 coldness and falsehood.
 That's it,More difficult,
 It's harder, and heavier, 
 I have to endure this,
 suffocating silence,
 After all,you know,
 darling,how much,
 I love you with all my heart,
 I cherish you,
 How strong and passionately,my dear,
 With all my heart,
 always forever yours,
 My dear,how I love you madly…
 how I love you…
 how I love you…
 how I love you!…
 
 17.-29.05.2024.
(Author: Yana-Lorano-Rulskaya).