Not funny, Stunning

I look back and
it's cringe
Pure cringe
To see clearly
how every second of them
And in good times third
Was so ready to
play Grinch,
for free
For God sake
Why did you make me
So compassionate
Kind and polite
To stubbornly see even
In complete darkness
The Light.
Like I'm made to
Understand and forgive
And support
Constantly over looking
The stupidity, for
Whatever reason
Care for bullies
And would I brag
After all that I
dodged the bullets
No. Thanks God I'm
older now, so I'm
way more safe
I was so overly kind
That it looks I was brave
I was not, just
Smart enough to
Keep my lips shut
When I don't have anything
Nice or helpful,
important to say
And it turns out
Stupidity perceived it
As an easy pray
I'm polite and
They think that
I like them, I don't
I'm attentive and
They think that
I love them, maybe
But that's on me
It's so easy to love
It's so hard to hate
Was it worth it? Yes
It was stunning to see.