Jesus. Night in Gethsemany

The closer the apogee of ministry is, the stronger the temptation.

When a person does good, many obstacles arise in front of him.

But when he begins the decisive battle, he will have to face an entire army of evil.

Sometimes a person feels so weak that he thinks he will never move forward.

But he stands up and speaks into this darkness of space. "I will not Give Up.

It doesn't matter to me what lies ahead: struggle, traps or betrayal. I'm still moving forward.
And I will reach the top.
And if death awaits me at this peak, I will still go forward.

I will complete my mission to the end.
Let it be on the edge of human capabilities or even beyond human capabilities,
but I will do what I must.”

Someone has to stand in the breach of the city wall and protect the city with his body.

If everyone feels sorry for themselves, nothing good will happen in this world.

And let there be this pain in the soul. Because only through pain is something new born.

Only through pain is the birth of a new life.

If there is no pain, then there is no victory afterwards.


To change life, a person must endure pain.
And if there are tears on your face because your soul hurts, then it’s time to cry!

If God created tears, then they should sometimes drip onto a person's cheeks.

This means that the heart has not yet turned to stone.

If he is able to cry, then it is not so bad.

Tomorrow there will be a special battle.
Will my heart stand?


When the sins of the whole world fall on my shoulders, the connection with my heavenly father will be interrupted.

And I must feel what it is like to be abandoned by God.

Becouse sin separates man from God

This is the most terrible thing that can happen in life, because when there is no God in a person’s soul, his life turns into hell.


How deep will the sorrow be? 
My soul must turn into a hot desert. Because I will take this curse of this world upon myself.
To redeem humanity

Why do I feel so powerless now, as if the darkness of this night has penetrated into my heart.

Seems that no moral and physical strength to fulfill the task that I have come to fulfill.

But I will have to descend into the hell so that people can ascend to heaven.

For someone to live, someone must die.


My disciples were with me for three years and did not fully understand everything I told them.

Probably, after my death, my words will take on a new meaning.
To enhance the meaning of words, you need to create silence, then words will acquire a high price.


Words will be written down and passed on from mouth to mouth.

And these words will have power.
for those who believe in them.

Everyone reads them and takes them into their hearts, and with these I will remain.
I will give them strength. I will give them protection.

I came here to earth to never leave my brothers and sisters who honor my words.

Meanwhile, my grief is only growing, because I feel not only the approaching end of my life,
but also severe suffering and trials in its very last segment.

In the end, will the Father accept this sacrifice? Will he find me worthy?

As a person, I am overcome by doubts that are now shaking this foundation of my faith and my trust in the Father.

Doubt is the devil's weapon.
He prepared for me the most sophisticated temptations at the end.

As He did in the desert, when my soul was grieving, when I was already exhausted from fasting for many days.

He makes significant arguments aimed at weakening faith.
But this is only the beginning, the final goal of the devil is for man to choose evil


A few hours ago, when my disciples and I broke bread, on this fraternal evening I was so calm that I did not expect to be left alone with these trials.
It seemed that I could count on their support.
Maybe they could share my grief and I wouldn't feel so lonely.

But the further I move towards the apogee of my mission, the more alone I feel.

The more I think about what awaits me tomorrow, the less I find the strength to do it.


Probably the biggest temptation is to think that everything was in vain.
Everything I did, everything I said, all these prayers, they did not bear any fruit.

Everything is useless if even my most cherished disciples could not be with me at the most dramatic moment.

I have not been able to recreate a new image in their hearts, I have not been able to change their nature.

So Judas, perhaps the most capable, decides to betray.
Although he heard everything I said, saw the miracles I performed and followed me all this time, but he was never able to absorb my teaching.

There are 11 more and how will they behave?
Will they be able to continue the work that I started, the work that my heavenly father entrusted to me.

“All in vain.”  You have wasted the time of your life” it is precisely such temptations that the devil will throw up to my followers.

No. Get away  Satan. Every word, every phrase has meaning and consequences.

I sowed in their hearts the teaching that my Father gave me. And it takes time for these seeds to germinate and bear fruit.

And I believe that my disciples will do even more. They will continue this mission and create a church and the gates of hell will not overcome it.

And if it is necessary to water this soil where the seeds lie with my blood, I will do it.

Tomorrow, evil will gain a temporary victory. 
The high priest and my persecutors will sigh and say, that's the end.

They will wash their hands and prepare a festive dinner in honor of my death.

But after my death, the most important action will begin.
And no power and no prisons and even executions will be able to stop the creation of a renewed teaching about the Creator, about His love and about man's faith in Him.


But to do this, I need to finish my life's work. To this I am called. That's what I came for.

But now I'm just humanly very confused because the hour is near and the trials that I have ahead are incommensurable with nothing.

I see the faces of the people I have to die for, I see their lives, I see their sadness on their faces, I see their sins.
This whole picture is not hopeless, so tomorrow I should transform their lives with my suffering and my death.

I will take all the shame of sin upon myself. I will be humiliated. So that these people have hope.

And death will no longer be the end point. Death will no longer rule.
What happened in the Garden of Eden must be corrected.
And the Spirit of God will lead me to the trials tomorrow
I must open a new chapter of human history, where the love of God will manifest itself in its entirety.

Because it's all for love. All this is a teaching about love. Everything should be in life for the sake of someone, not for yourself.

Only then will all the colors of this universe be fully revealed.

Yes. All for the sake of someone all for the sake of love.
Then only the plot will be interesting, because it will touch human hearts.

I got to know people well.  I have seen many human mistakes.

All the imperfection of man, all the corruption of man due to the fall, I saw, I felt.

And at the same time, I did not lose love, for man. The unrighteousness of people has not shaken my love for them.

It hurts to realize that those you love reject you.

I turned out to be an undesirable person.
 
Many people would like to avoid meeting me.
Many people would like to cover their ears so as not to hear the words of my teaching.

For many people, I became an enemy, just as the prophets who walked the earth exposing human sins were enemies.

Because they came at the most inopportune hour and uttered accusatory words.
Therefore, the prophets were killed because their way of life pricked someone's eyes,
and their words hurt someone's ears.

Because sin has gone too far. Human hearts are saturated with sin.
But you, my Father, give them another chance.
You will not destroy the city if there is at least one righteous person.
And I have come to increase faith on earth. And it's extremely hard. Because at every step I feel the opposition.

I'm a stranger here with my truth. At least that's what my life has shown.
Let's see what my death will show.
She will probably be able to move the stone slabs in people's hearts.
At least in some people.

I'm coming to you, my Father. I am finishing my earthly mission.

Everything that was given to me from you, I have passed on to people and I will pass on more.
Because my mission and my ministry to people wounded by sin does not end.

Now I am forever related to them, they are my brothers and my sisters.

I will never leave them and when I will be with you, my Father they will receive the Holy Spirit, the power of the Holy Spirit

And then they eventually will win back this planet.

From the very day I was born there in Bethlehem, I was walking to that moment.

And you've always been with me.

You cleared the way for me and sent guardian angels,

You made my step confident, because you gave me wisdom.

For every moment of my life, I express my gratitude to you, my Father.
And I would like every person to be sighted, so that he could see your helping hand and glorify you.

You were preparing me for a certain ministry.

And the culmination, the moment of truth, comes,
just as then in the garden of Eden.
for first people.

They could not resist.
Now the test is in front of me. And I have to fix it.

You have loved this world, my Father, and sent me, the lamb, to the altar.
And I will humbly accept what I have to accept, what has fallen to me. I will fulfill your will to the end.

Let this be an example for all my followers.

So that they also accept your will, calmly and meekly, without crying and murmuring.

And this would be an affirmation that they are truly your disciples.

Because despite the severity of what has fallen to them, they continue the path of faith to the very end.

And they must go towards this evil that gnashes its teeth .

And they have no right to lose this battle, because all the celestials have quieted down and are watching whether they will go to the end.

Will they not lower their hands. Will they be brave enough.

My heavenly father. I pray that the temptations of my followers will not be so severe. And the sadness was not so deep.

Give them moments of peace and joy, because anyone who follows in my footsteps will be under constant fire.

He will be in the struggle and trials, so make their way easier for them and reward them for their faith and patience.

So that all of us together would one day gather at a huge table and celebrate our victory. Victory over sin and death.

My Father, the cup that I have to drink is deep and bitter enough.
Nevertheless, I ask you to give me the courage and strength to drink it to the bottom.
I do not find the strength to do this, because this cup includes great suffering.

Tomorrow all the injustice of this world will be revealed in its entirety.

And along with this, my love for humanity will be fully revealed, but no one will be able to understand this until a certain time.

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