On my way

On my way from darkness to the home
I will stop at the nearest corner
Silence ails and something's going on
I can feel emptiness that holds me

In a shop of prophetic dreams
Gonna waste my last shiny quarter
No more pain, no regrets and screams
I'm so old in my early thirties

It's not me who's standing at the door
Not my face winces in the mirror
There are things you cannot ignore
There are words you don't wanna hear them

I will wear my fancy brown pants
Yellow shirt and red tie are awesome
Overdressed just because I can
And just cool till the very bottom

Never thought I would be understood
I will take my beloved sunglasses
Jesus would like my look
He was adored by masses

Now it's time to atone for sins
Bend your knees if you want forgiveness
In the hood I'm the last O.G.
Keeping peace is my major business

Let's raise hands and unite our souls
In the church we pray for the homies
Different parts are becoming whole
Sincere faith and abiding honor

And old ladies whisper "Oh my God!"
Crosses themselves with the trembling fingers
Don't blaspheme you know I ain't no Lord
Just a servant and true believer

Nervous wind's raising up the dust
Gloomy clouds wanted to embrace me
Old footprints of disturbing past
But right now it's just empty phrases

And again I'm behind the wheel
Going fast on the winding highway
Many options have been revealed
And this time I will do it my way