Dead sun

I hope that once you'll get it how i felt
In moments when you turned away and left.
I never felt your warmth, my lovely sun.
I hope you'll understand just what you've done.

I hope that problem really not in me.
I never was the loved one as you see.
In moments when you saw my crying eyes
I hope you knew that i have paid my price.

I wish somebody hold my shaking hands
In moments when i turn and see your face.
I wish somebody wiped away my tears
The problem is you know that i will miss.

I hope in future you will understand
That i was little girl which you made sad.
I never was the one to feel your touch
I hope that i am just not bad that much.

I hope that i was not disgusting thing
In moments i lost kilos every spring.
I never was the one to hear "i love"
But other things i just had heard enough.

I wish somebody threw away my fears,
But as you know i can't stand not-your kiss.
I wish somebody tried to hold my hand,
But i just know without you i'll be dead.