Nikocado Avocado 09. 11. 2021

My life has divided by line:
I was highly concerned of my health.
Once I've heard: "You'll never be fine".
I rejected my lifestyle away.

Know what? I strongly decide
Not to follow your path, okay?! –
I'll create my own, despite
You would say it's unhealthiest way.

In a few years time we have:
Me, who's suffering every damn day,
Lots of fans besides those who care
How my mental health impacts my way.

No one even has an idea
What i'm going through every day.
They believe that my health disappears,
Cause i would prefer money and fame.

Was enjoying my life, was untiring,
As an average young healthy man.
You could see me sincerely smiling,
Telling jokes and laughing... but then...

I am quarreling with husband and crying,
Finding collabs and eating with them.
I just never have been reprimanded,
All that shit like "Keep calm, you're a man!"

Since that time we have changed a lot –
A couple of nice guys turned "patients".
"Who needs to be blamed?" - you thought.
It was me, extremely impatient...

I remember holding my phone,
Watching photos of husband all night.
I felt lonely that long night at home,
Everyone had the same here, right?

Everything became bad, just annoying,
I do not recognizing myself.
Every day makes me losing my temper,
Don't you judge, you should look on yourself!

Now my violin is kept on a far shelf –
It reminds me my long-past young days.
I still seldom have feeling like playing,
You, guys, say I've betrayed myself...