Paradoxical russophobia

habitual balance
night furniture
trying to find out
suspense
necessary mediocrity
paradoxical russophobia

     habitual balance
they are all the same
it's true, they are
Chinese, young officials,
old doctors and countless
sexots...
... only we differ -
dancing like a girl
knowing love...
.................
... habitual balance
between fear and desire
put on a cow bell

     night furniture
night furniture attacks
... need reasonable protection,
feel full
'matka' by blood...
...............
...the great wait ends
childhood
and the story begins
very slow insanity -
reliable way to get rid of
from state immortality

     trying to find out
          non-smokers ask for cigarettes /Nabokov
When did it happen?
when did the booze and smoke end?
.................................
... life rolls by inertia, but
Very High Cloud is yet to come...
... there are signs of animal cooling,
small trash in your pocket,
syringes in the parking lot,
daily
until the snow falls
...................
meeting with a young old woman -
trying to get to know a classmate

     suspense
the father of a dictator is always unknown,
because only
that everyone wants to be...
...like toilet graffiti
no author and
does not stay on the sharp knee
not a trace...
gestures from behind - "I, I, this is me" ...
difficult childhood,
due to lack of breast milk?
reason catches reason...
it remains to prove natural law
prove again and again
and all because of suspens

     necessary mediocrity
"achievement of love" - ;;the only
gift of Russian life...
well, still unusual
beautiful cows...
and what an expressive mediocrity
much needed national leader
...................
poke nameless
in the dark absence of a rib
temporarily safe dead
in a zinc cradle
half-shaven - according to the Torah!

     paradoxical russophobia
          Oh, Hamlet, lunar booby / Nabokov
corkscrew in the palm...
tired of being Russian -
even a cheerful Chinese,
cunning 'kholkhol' or
all happy 'bulboruss',carbon cyborg,
in a smart glass house...
don't think about christian symbols
in the "human race" system.
...............................
in the old way is called "soul",
and in a new way - the instinct of sympathy,
leading to indecision
burning manuscripts,
paradoxical russophobia