Forced happiness

going on an Ice voyage
feel like
forced happiness
flying Niki Lauda
delirium of immortality
dream diary

     going on an Ice voyage
camp laws of people's life
the future is the Order of Malta and the Chinese
zoology of transformations
manias are images of objects,
trait recognition...
lectures on the Cause;
interpretation of aspirations and impossibility
resist
the emergence of the greats from the past as
neighbors
experts: blind, deaf and stutterer
the main question is "human or not"
.......................
...going on an Ice Campaign
under the command of General Lebed
 
     feel like
exhausting sex, war with
neighbor-moron, divorce
mystical attitude to the child
sense of phallus and phallus
at the sculpture of the Leader
, intellectuals, jazz
careful search for complexes
perversions with dogs:
feel like a dog!
get a job as a stage worker, then as an illuminator
karate sect: mae-geri, zen, tanks
transition to the right life -
head shaving, bike, careless
killing a dog, the world condenses
acute sense of hexogen, grab
behind the head - an explosion!
this one showed up at the wrong time
feels naked
and feel like a rat? gnaw dry
crust?
how do you feel?

     forced happiness
the end is not clear - we must
to blow something up? and motives?
environmental pollution? or
Hegel's forced happiness?
then why beat the old man?
interrogation is a psychological duel,
and torture is simple proctology!
roam the city with the feeling of a wolf
why no documents? - go to-***,
can't you read?
all around are castrati
...another change of personality

     flying Niki Lauda
...always saw an old man at the races,
failed artist?
a girl in black glasses and a white scarf,
former prosecutor,
strange type with sandwiches - apparently
bartender,
a guy in a "trophy" toe-length
leather coat with eternal
like on Greek statues with folds
.................................
and Niki Lauda flew over everything,
Austrian in a fiery red helmet
number twelve...

     delirium of immortality
let's drink, my dear liver
on the occasion of contact with the Andromeda Nebula;
they are in a hundred thousand years of depression -
everything is there, there is no war or Vertinsky:
"... how pale is your Pierrot"
...........
bike ride through burdocks, then
visiting a homeless shelter
cockroaches...
it's like half a river or half a hand,
like the delirium of painful immortality

     dream diary
he works at a research institute on fluorescence
to measure sausage for freshness
likes to walk on red
he has a trolleybus girlfriend,
but not divorced,
he likes to go crazy,reply
to the question - did he lose consciousness ...
...............................
thought, thought, remembered the diary ...
... looked - there are only dreams about that
how the car hit him