Bifurcation

 I feel like being split on two
Between myself and maybe you.
Two years, one day, two parts of life:
Before and after, I don’t lie.
Chaotic bifurcation -
Each needs self-isolation.
I’d better throw to rubbish bin
All memories of you and me,
All feelings I did feel with you,
All photos, video review...
For just few moments of relief
With escaping from my grief.
This everlasting pain has hurt
For too much long,
Like dreary song.
No, I don’t...
Do not erase my movie shots
Our story neither bad nor short
Was partly great and partly good,
But I can’t stand the way you could.
Time to face our own ways
If only I could it embrace
With faith in me, in being unique...
Did you treat me as a freak?
Loving you evokes my spite,
Neither overcome nor hide
Could I
Could I ?
Could I ?
Shut it, stop it, inching pain
Like a disease, a constant strain.
Where did it lead us? How it felt?
Hatred, contempt?
Please, don’t say that,
Let me believe we are still fine
Apart.