Falling Apart

I’m slowly falling for you.
Your arms are open.
I’m sinking in you.
My heart is racing and stops just for you.

Your touch revives me and mends.
Broken pieces are melted again.
Invisible scars on my chest.
My ailing eases at your expanse.

Wondering if you want a man
Or dead plastic plant.
Watering me is no good
But I’m trying so hard to come through.

I’m slowly turning again
Drowning myself in blues and the reds.
Wondering if someone else
Comes and saves me again.

Gave myself all to your love
Carved my heart out, opened my soul.
You turned away, scornfully waved.
Moment like this is disgrace to my brain.

Shutting windows again
I find myself repeating the same self-hatred phrase.
My mind's too much to bear.
All of me is too hard to stand.

Time slowly fading away
Mistaking day for a year.
All lines are blurry again.
Hours and minutes are passing at the same pace.

Love slowly dying, my friend.
Have been hoping for this one to stand.
It’s all my fault, It’s okay.
I’m so used to this road of mistakes.

My mind is racing again
Rewinding events, words unsaid
I’m on fire.
Cold hands deceive you, so is my face.

I’m slowly falling again.
Your arms are gone, colors drained.
The world moves on all around
As I’m slowly falling apart.