Never again

The coloured disappeared world
Has crushed my scared frozen shade.
Enough for me, I’m deadly bored
From that unbearable big crusade.
Mad roaring beast inside of me
Wants more in endless fight.
But I don’t have the valued key
To open door in coming night.
The silent turn from face to back
Replaces roughly heart with stone.
The sun is painted just in black,
It is a darkness covered zone.
 
Never again!  Never again!
Soft whisper boils my toxic blood!
Never again! Never again!
Your shiny smile explodes my mind.
And I’ve swamped deep into the mud,
The eyes are full with sand - I’m blind.
Never again!
Never again!
 
You’ve left, the only twinkling star,
There’s no way for suicide.
You was so close, but was so far -
Still stone cold, unreachable and bright.
Beloved, you stepped away with glance
To let the fire go in vain.
And ugly ghosts began to dance
With shouts and my head in pain.
The dusty corner - hiding place,
The only gate to paradise.
A cruel present sicks in face,
It is the fair weakness price.
 
Never again!  Never again!
Soft whisper boils my toxic blood!
Never again! Never again!
Your shiny smile explodes my mind.
And I’ve swamped deep into the mud,
The eyes are full with sand - I’m blind.
Never again!
Never again!
 
I said myself - it is enough
For calling grumpy fallen sun.
And things that seemed to be so tough
Just make me now only fun.
I melt like sudden light white fog
From deadly calm and clear sky.
You wanna be a part of flock,
Not mine, I don’t know still why?!
I beg to smoothly run the course
From burning hell and to the end.
My angel, give me extra force -
My own’s been already spent.
 
Never again!  Never again!
Soft whisper boils my toxic blood!
Never again! Never again!
Your shiny smile explodes my mind.
And I’ve swamped deep into the mud,
The eyes are full with sand - I’m blind.
Never again!
Never again!
 
(Июнь 2021)