Intangible asset

How do I manage the biggest intangible asset I have?
How do I touch upon the same resource of the others?
How do I look at the cross if it's not my symbol?

I act out my life is not happening to me,
Imagining ancient gods instead of Christian saints,
But who can judge my flexible mind
That tries to keep up with a debate on biology and physics?

I am not entirely materialistic,
Since I know what religious ecstasy is.

I am not completely idealistic -
I think of inventions and try to foresee big numbers.

I am not soulless,
Though sometimes it is hard to show empathy.

When tragedies happen,
I keep a straight face,
But emotions of loss and loneliness
Whirl around the pole of my character.

When tragedies happen,
I speak out,
But my mind is far away,
Hiding in a transcendental meditation.

After all, tragedies
Are beautiful dark flowers
On an endless tree of the all-consuming Time.