Not dear guest. Cuts

I told of you so deep,
That noone ever will.
I thought you were that deep.
You were my biggest thrill.

You were my biggest miracle.
I thought you are the one))
I got your smallest fears
And biggest hopes at ones.

As though you needed it.
How could I.. Oh, come on!

I was supporting dearly
Your wishes and desires.
Believing in you, really,
Like prisoners to sires.

Like sires to their king.
Like king believes to noone..
And that was what you did.
Believed noone. Well, go on.

You know, I did the best.
That noone did for you.
I waited for you, guest.
I wanted only you.

Yet I've been praying of you
So you would have success,
So you'd be happy with me
Or without, if it's best.

And even now, i'm writing this,
Not for you. You don't deserve it.
I know that you won't miss
Anything. So good that I have wits
To see how I've been loyal,
To something that even didn't exist.

I had this admire out of blindness.
It's good that it is true.
And thank you for your kindness.
There is no need in you.

I think that I deserve that.
Leaving all the rest.
But I'll remember lesson.
Your lesson, not dear guest.

And if the fire fainted,
It is not him to pity.
It's those who were by fire
Warmed and calmed so gritty