I have been harboring a grudge against you

I have been harboring a grudge against you,
And I have not the least wish to forgive!
No forgiveness - but in full enragement
Now I demand to start changing something:

I don't forgive you for you have offended
Balmont, comparing with a bad style,
I don't forgive that you cheated me, changing
Friendship, inviting a goat at midnight.

I take offense and I do not accept it:
That you praised not me, but gave all your praise
To the girl Anya, and I never met her,
Always, however, God grant her good health.

I don't forgive that you wrote your comments
When I was needed reviews - not to me!
I don’t forgive that you didn’t read poems
That God dictatecd to me about me.

I don't forgive that you cheated and cheated
cursing so earthly, sky wasn't accessed,
I don't forgive that you spent the time limit,
But without getting in touch in the end.

I don't forgive that you blindly praise music
Just anywhere, but not before me,
Spiteful Nabokov you bother by using,
Hinder my ear from Universe' dream.

I don't forgive you that you have offended
These poor doctors who really heal,
And all the slander that you have omitted
The etymology of vital speech!

I don't forgive that's in the word on rhythms
You changed it into the musical theme!
I don't forgive that instead of revealing
You write superfluous, long blather filth.

I don't forgive that you let drink the alcohol
And can't forbid it to be near your home!
I don't forgive you for the child so innocent
That inhales alcohol fumes which may spoil!

I don't forgive that you didn't protect me
when on your page they had called me a fool!
I don't forgive that you tempted and beckoned
A bunch of gifts without giving a ruble!

I don't forgive that you wake up my passions,
turning me into a tigress, a beast,
I don't forgive, soaring over power,
That you may always subdue - dear - me!

I don't forgive - now I'm taking off, flying
I'm going into a poetic rage!
I don't forgive ... although now I'm smiling,
Somewhat completely dispersed in a rage.

I forgave everything! - and I wrote all this,
To figure out how far one may fly,
never forgiving and always just roaring
This load has been dropped. It's easy and fine!

But if just anything .. - come for my kicking...
You surely love it - like a boiling foam,
Ebullience pleases your soul, like a beer.
You, the Brain mover, I'll break free from you!!!

And I will change you just as easily, sure!

What do you have to do for my forgiveness?
Kiss my lines endlessly kiss without end!
They themselves are of the semi-god thinking,
And of course - you start improving yourself!

And if you harbored from me some offences -
Then put them down to make a volume,
I promise you - to forgive my transgressions -
Then for the better I'll change myself too!