Myself in control

I'm wildly tired of hating myself.
I havely believe that i do not need help.
I don't know why i hate myself.
I have chosen the path and go to hell.
I'm just used to pain, tournament and hatred.
I'm used to thinking that i am fool.
I'm used to thinking that i'm miscreated.
I always destroyted my mood.

I believe that i am unnecessary and wrong!
I am hold myself in control!
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But i want to push my fingers in the eyes sockets!
I so want to tear out my own eyes
With pieces of the brain, skull and meat!
I put my hands in my pockets!
They tremble very much! Jesus Christ!
I feel my insane heartbeat!

My father died when i was five.
Mother took good care of me.
I tried, seriously tried to be fine.
My Dark Side makes me swim
In black sticky bile.
Soon i will drown in this pus.
But i still hold on. She wiling
Me to scary heavy curse.

I believe that i am unnecessary and wrong!
I am hold myself in control!
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I remembered why i hate
Myself. I opened the door
To Darkness and wait
Till she away full.
I will go the psychologist.
I hope he helps.
I hope he kill my beast,
Imprison him in unknown depths.
But what remains for me now?
Lying under black snow,
Believing that i'm unnecessary and wrong,
Holding myself in control.
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