Not understand

I laugh, sobbing,
 I cry with wild laughter and sob,
 Under Holy sin images
 And I pray for debauchery and shame.
 & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; Chorus:
 And my soul is as full as a forge,
 Everything around him tries to burn,
 Suddenly she would be a pitiful prisoner
 And resigned to fate drags.
 
 I pray: "good God, rejoice,
 Open the door to the world of consent & quot;.
 " You don't know what you want," -
 Says the demon expert in me.
           
 And my soul is as full as a forge...
 
 Past days do not return the pack,
 Real-dreams did not come true,
 I do not hope for the future.
 Not to understand a wayward life.
  
 And my soul is as full as a forge...
 
 Between hell I wander and Paradise,
 Like a stranger in a strange land.
 I don't know any shelter on earth.
 And I have no one to pray to.
 & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; & nbsp; Chorus:
 And my soul is as full as a forge,
 Everything around him tries to burn,
 Suddenly she would be a pitiful prisoner
 And resigned to fate drags.
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