To my Husband 2017

 Please let my troubles free,
Dump all your heaviest thoughts on me.
 And if one day I want to cry,
I think I really shouldn't shy.
 Because what good is it to love someone,
If you must hide the reasons why?
 
 This won't happen every day, of course
But never? Never's even worse,
  Because never intrinsically means
 you've limited yourself, your universe
 
  Find the love in everyone,
  Don't think that all are animals.
  If you do, you'll see your hands
  turn, as the years go by, to claws
 
  Don't be sad about what could've been.
  All those years I was alone...
  All those years we never met...
  ...And If we met before, You wouldn't have been
  strong enough to earn my respect.
 
  I would've met a boy, not a man.
  A zombie from his job,
  too scared to make his own way...
  A completely submissive bitch,
  too submissive to understand,
 I  would have ended up just watching him suck and fuck hundreds of men,
  — Fuck that would've been hot! So many fantasies that never came true!!! So much shitty sex.
  But it wouldn't have meant much in the end.
  Just an empty feeling.
  Just another ex.
 
  But you went through utter hell.
  Hell after endless hell.
  And I think, in the end, so did I,
  (even though I pretend I didn't.)
  And instead I find a man turned to stone.
  A man who's next to death.
  And maybe to heal him with love
  Leads to a far better union.
 
  So remember for me,
  That the best time is now.
  There is no past, there is no future.
  Those are only thoughts inside your head.
  And suffering comes ONLY from thoughts.
  Peace, love and happiness
  Only exist in the NOW.
  -= The Present Moment =-
 
  If all the rest could fall away,
  There would only be you,
  Your body,
  Your heartbeat,
  Your breath.
  Love is there. In the silence. In the spaces between the sounds. In the depth.
 
  But life goes on.
  Life is chaos.
  Information overload.
  Streams of thought,
  Many of them toxic
  No matter..... Let it all
  Fall away
  Let it all fall to oblivion.
 
  Give no judgment
  Have compassion
  Even to animals
  Even to scum.
  And love what you have.
  For what you have is love.

 March 2017