The Pain I Cause

Whatever they may be, I’m ready to accept my losses
And still then stay alive.
I am a graduate with honors from the school of sorrow.
There is no pain I couldn’t stand. Oh I’m so good at that.

There is though something that I still can’t handle—
The pain I cause to others, it hurts so bad and ties me up.
I should have gotten rid of it when time was right,
But what would I’ve become?

There is no sense, it breaks my stride, it limits me so harsh
Without much payback.
I could’ve achieved oh so much more, I think that I still can.
Should take the risks, accept the outcome regardless.

There is though something that I still can’t handle—
The pain I cause to others, it hurts so bad and ties me up.
I should have gotten rid of it when time was right,
But what would I’ve become?

Diluted pupils of the eyes, the screams are hiding in the wind
I caused on you and them.
I’m paralyzed, I cannot move, behind the wheel I’m crying.
How can I be without this pain, how can I stay myself?

There is though something that I still can’t handle—
The pain I cause to others, it hurts so bad and ties me up.
I should have gotten rid of it when time was right,
But what would I’ve become?


July 30, 2018