iowa

he was my light, my darkness, my full moon, my ocean, my oasis and my dune, he was my trust, forgiveness, my best friend, the very my beginning and the end, i walked alone for years till we met, the first thing i remember, the last thing i’ll forget, he was the only one who knew me all from top to toes, the only one i truly chose;

now stop the time, prevent the earth from spinning, i lost my main and only underpinning, the very brightest light for me is just a shadow now, yet i’ll survive in it - that was my vow, i promised him too much, he promised even more, which’ll never happen though, now count - two, three, four… yet i keep seeing him in everything i do, wherever am i, whenever i feel happy or feel blue, in everything i ever wrote or drew;

he was… the world, eternity itself, my hope, my satellite, he was myself, someone i met before my own birth, he was my astral twin, my love, for what it’s worth, he was my compass, guiding light, my every day and every night, he…

he was. i’m still remaining here.

and while i am - it is forever

«we are».