Hollowed

Don't know where to go.
Be quite and drive.
Some time, right before
I tried to rule your life,
I felt I doomed to stay
outside strong feelings zone.
But suddenly you stayed.
Nothing like before.

Oh, honey, I was hollowed
and tired to pray for sign.
Then suddenly you followed.
Just right.

And all I want to fix is
strange fears inside my head
which lead me as a victim
to run from love instead
of caring you and treating
and being beloved one.
If time was right, I bet we
still shared morning sun.

But I behaved silly.
Tried to fulfil your dream
being not ready really
collide a thoughts within.

And now my crying fingers
write violet phrase on sheets.
I wish I can retrieve us
and follow to your needs!
But worst thing is your silence.
You better HATE me, thought...
Appologies behind us.
Ain't anything in front?..

A.B. (27/03/18)

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