Spiral staircase

My line of fate is broken into slivers
wounding my lips
my poisoned blood is flowing in the rivers
drowning my ships

why do you want me to survive
There is no sense to live again
it seems sometimes that only I
remember how it all began

it seems sometimes
that only I
had no future no past
and something scares though attracts
me in idea of eternal rest

The blood of eternity
is made of thousand ends
the drink of gods for mortals is bitter
or too sweet

the brims of cup
made of my scull
are painfully cutting my lips
I am counting the sips
as the steps to the top
I am sick of it but I cannot stop

Chorus
I wish one day the souls will be bare
The gods would bless the children brave enough to dare

Dead flower's bloom not dead but dying
eternal bloom
I keep on crying hiding in the gloom
Holding breath beneath my skin
Under the spell like under water
the liquid fire burns
in Dance around the burning cross

Time equals to again differ
Everything is trembling
The melting iron, moldy wood
One shape into another
Spiral staircase
 leading to the rainbow space
I see too many fakes
Under the black sauce
Through the lens of emptiness
Through the fire
Through the lens of rainbow
Through the lens of darkness
Spiral staircase
 leading to the rainbow space
all around the burning cross…

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the ugly words seem senseless more
the more I try to write
for sudden moment I achieve balance between the gloom and light
but something tears apart the rainbow ribbon all around my spine
for sudden moment blood inside is turning into vine

my frozen blood is breaking bones from inside without a trace
the borders fall and crash the separated sides instead of self-erase

I promise to remember
a lesson that they gave
if you like graves than keep it secret as a grave
for more you know the truth
more you're looked down and shy
forget about heaven if you wanna learn to fly

nothing is shining brighter
than in bonfire's flame
the player is a fighter
and this war is not a game
the shapes are transformation
but remain in any time or age
the deeper poison penetration
crucified on lightened stage

no only hand to lead me through this labyrinth
no eye to look into like in the mirror, in the crystal sphere
too many hands too many eyes indifferent and blaming
I can see nothing clear enough and everything too clear

I fall in constant spirit to rise in other flesh
to see the rainbow demons
that can teach me how to fly
and each of them has seven fingers
and the only eye
I do not mind if I would crash

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Chorus
I wish one day the souls will be bare
and in the dreams there will be nothing to beware

two rainbows join in perfect ring
inside of which is a black hole
I tear away my second wing
and add the feathers into bowl
the potion bowl

the blood of all the rainbow shades
the taste is getting bitter
I walk the polished sharpened blades
in rays of sun they glitter

to find third eye, the crystal sphere
beneath the second skin
if is a sin to be sincere
to lie is not a sin

your faith is not a guarantee the gods are on your side
the safest way is straight and narrow way to hell is bent and  wide

I fall in constant flesh
to rise in other spirit
spiral staircase
made of all the rainbow rays
spiral staircase
struggling through me as a growing tree
force creating and destroying me is still inside of me
spiral staircase
endless it can make me free
spiral staircase
to the rainbow space…