Из Чарльза Буковски - Саднит от любви
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маленькая смуглая девочка с
добрыми глазами,
когда подойдёт время
воспользоваться ножом,
я не дрогну, и
не стану тебя
упрекать,
когда буду ехать один вдоль берега
под раскачивающимися пальмами,
безобразными толстыми пальмами,
поскольку живые не приходят
а мёртвые не уходят,
я не стану винить тебя,
напротив,
я буду помнить как мы целовались,
наши губы, саднящие от любви,
и как ты отдала мне
всё, что имела,
и как я предложил тебе всё, что от меня
осталось,
и я помню твою маленькую комнатёнку
и ощущенье тебя,
свет в окне,
твои диски,
твои книги,
наш утренний кофе,
наши полдни, наши ночи,
наши тела, слившиеся вместе
во сне,
крохотные текущие струйки,
внезапные, вечные,
твоя нога, моя нога,
твоя рука, моя рука,
твоя улыбка,
и тепло от
тебя,
заставившие меня снова
смеяться.
маленькая смуглая девочка с добрыми глазами,
нет у тебя
ножа. нож
мой, и пока я не стану пускать его
в ход.
28.07.17
Raw With Love - Poem by Charles Bukowski
little dark girl with
kind eyes
when it comes time to
use the knife
I won't flinch and
I won't blame
you,
as I drive along the shore alone
as the palms wave,
the ugly heavy palms,
as the living does not arrive
as the dead do not leave,
I won't blame you,
instead
I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
me,
and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again.
little dark girl with kind eyes
you have no
knife. the knife is
mine and I won't use it
yet.
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His Wife, The Painter
There are sketches on the walls of men and women and ducks,
and outside a large green bus swerves through traffic like
insanity sprung from a waving line; Turgenev, Turgenev,
says the radio, and Jane Austin, Jane Austin, too.
"I am going to do her portrait on the 28th, while you are
at work."
He is just this edge of fat and he walks constantly, he
fritters; they have him; they are eating him hollow like
a webbed fly, and his eyes are red-suckled with anger-fear.
He feels hatred and discard of the world, sharper than
his razor, and his gut-feel hangs like a wet polyp; and he
self-decisions himself defeated trying to shake his
hung beard from razor in water (like life), not warm enough.
Daumier. Rue Transonian, le 15 Avril, 1843. (lithograph.)
Paris, Bibliotheque Nationale.
"She has a face unlike that of any woman I have ever known."
"What is it? A love affair?"
"Silly. I can't love a woman. Besides, she's pregnant."
I can paint- a flower eaten by a snake; that sunlight is a
lie; and that markets smell of shoes and naked boys clothed,
and that under everything some river, some beat, some twist that
clambers along the edge of my temple and bites nip-dizzy. . .
men drive cars and paint their houses,
but they are mad; men sit in barber chairs; buy hats.
Corot. Recollection of Mortefontaine.
Paris, Louvre.
"I must write Kaiser, though I think he's a homosexual."
"Are you still reading Freud?"
"Page 299."
She made a little hat and he fastened two snaps under one
arm, reaching up from the bed like a long feeler from the
snail, and she went to church, and he thought now I h've
time and the dog.
About church: the trouble with a mask is it
never changes.
So rude the flowers that grow and do not grow beautiful.
So magic the chair on the patio that does not hold legs
and belly and arm and neck and mouth that bites into the
wind like the ned of a tunnel.
He turned in bed and thought: I am searching for some
segment in the air. It floats about the peoples heads.
When it rains on the trees it sits between the branches
warmer and more blood-real than the dove.
Orozco. Christ Destroying the Cross.
Hanover, Dartmouth College, Baker Library.
He burned away in his sleep.
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