A seagull s cry

A seagull's cry - uninterrupted scream.
The bluish of the sky - more like a dream.
This eager listener to all my trashy thoughts,
The one who waits when I am lost for words.

A tender wind - so touching on my skin.
The battle lost, when I was meant to win.
A final vow not to love again.
This gory battle, causing only pain...

I wish I were that seagull in the sky.
It can be gone, whenever I just die -
And feel the sorrow, weakness and dismay.
I've lost your eyes forever and today...

No matter what, I still have got my verse.
And that could be a blessing or a curse.
I wouldn't care less, if you were mine...
The words can make me weak, but let you shine.

My mind is like a thicket or a bog,
While I am struggling further through this fog -
Back to my freedom, which is not a gain.
This wishful thinking causes only pain.

You have deceived me with your night-dark eyes.
I wonder why... And now I despise
Myself for being so badly, badly tricked.
I shouldn't care much,... but I'm so weak.

It's time to finish. Just a seagull's cry-
And I'll be gone forever. No goodbye.
No hug. No kiss. And nothing's left to say...
I've lost your eyes forever... and today.

26-27.07.2017