To my dear forgotten lord

I don't know which way you choose to follow in the dark
But I know the way you will not go any more
I am proud of you, you are my pattern
but it maybe such a blasphemy to imitate
You're strong enough to get rid of this golden cage
Although I am free to fly I always will return
I will never get on your way, never irritate

I don't know which way you choose in dark of the night
But I am still sure you have chosen it right
And if you still ponder and still hesitate
I am always ready to help and to wait

It may be our ways will be never complete
Until somewhere somehow we will finally meet
Even as we are - unsure, unprepared
To join in the only true way - dark and shared

When I have some time to ponder
I cannot ask but still I wonder
If alone the ways are secretly the same
would it join us or separate?
love will never win
when you want to cut but blade in slipping under
skin...
I'd prefer the collar on the neck around
To believe until the end or to brake
maybe everytime I say
"It just couldn't be mistake"
it seems so because of worse background?

Wherever I am, whatever I do
My inner self dreams of belonging to you
But are the dreams valuble, will it ever be so
I cannot predict until you let me know

The more here I see
The more you are precious to me
Here in the net you never hang
consciously
You seem the one never using this slang
for me it is meaningful
gentle and secretly wounded
mysterious
shy and reserved
but strong and confident
have I deserved?
Or could it be
that you think
that you yourself do not deserve?

The deeper I bury my treasure
The more is its gravestone pressure
The deeper in constant life I am involved
The stronger is inner fear that is not solved
I may find "friends", things world used to forbid
However, anyway this all is not what I need
you are the one whom I must dedicate
myself, my life and death till is yet not late
only in such way I'm able to escape
from this false universe
It is more painful as I see and always knew
It could be beautiful, it could be true
At least I know that - only with you

But as I already said
As I even don't have to say
As it is to be meant
I know I must never get on your way
If I am nothing, if I am unwanted
I cannot ever blame
I'd prefer to never be born
To drown in sacral flame

But whisper into the void:
If you could only return
If you only came...

The deeper in constant life I am involved
The stronger is inner fear that is not solved
The secret I never told
To my dear forgotten lord.