Dead Night

What ever you did - you did!
What ever I said - I meant!
What ever you think is true...
I may never again see you.

I did not sleep all night,
Moving from one side of the bed to the other side.
The pillows under my chin got all wet
As if I were deadly ill.
`Cause the sweat beads were running down my hot forehead.
My hair stuck to the skin - I was all boiling!

`Cause I have too much stress and too many emotions.
I look at your picture but see you in motion.

I thought you were a gift from heaven,
An answer to my prayers...
But all my attempts have become failures.

I thought I had caught a hope.
I had it in my hands for a short moment.
I felt the most joy and the most happiness.
I thought my paradise would be endless....

Is that how it`s all gonna end?
One silly word and I was outside sent?

No, It can`t be.... I refuse to accept this.
Just one word can not lead to such consequence.

That means there is much more to the story.
That means the hope I had belonged to me only...