Experimental Child

I will not survive under the dominant rules, 'cuz I'm an experimental child
Look what you've done, look at those ruins, a human but ugly and wild
I've learned to breathe by the different way, you're still asking me why?
I called you for help, I called you to feast, but you've never been on my side!

You've taught me to love my psychical killers, you've made me a laconic doll
I've tasted the pain, I've tasted the fear, but I've never agreed with this role
The man I confessed to, was me in the mirror, it was my voice I heart when I've called
How could you know what I feel, when I bleed from scratching the wall!

My trained holiness was my worst enemy, to please you I had to deny-
My real face, my true destiny,being oppressed and so pretty polite
The night hid from death, the wind dried my tears, it was too late when I realized-
I'm just an absurd creature you made of me, all I did I just wasted my life!