I just want to be close to you

I knew that I was hurting you before,
I knew, I promised, I won't do that anymore…
But…
I've done it many times and it still happening again
And I feel sad and grieved,
And in my heart appeared the pain.
I can't forget the times when you were smiling,
I can't forget your eyes that were so shining.
Your lips, your neck, your hands were close to me and still…
They were just in my dreams so softly drived me mad...
How ill!
How ill I am in all my thoughts in all my feelings
And everything which leads to that is just a perfect feeling,
The love which came into my soul changed everything in me;
It showed me way to better life, to better season.
And…
I truly know this love will always have the reason.
Oh GOD! Please bless my love, please bless my dreams
And give me just a single chance to be with him.
I know that everything I want I'll gain;
I know my life will never be the same.
You'll be with me forever and I will never let you go
Because you are my precious and my treasure on this earth.
Like water drops of summer rain would kiss your face
I know…
Someday…
I'll kiss you better, stronger, softer, warmer.
Just wait some time and you will feel through veins
How close I'm to you, oh, darling.
                -Anna Borissova