Autism

I feel depressed, what can I do?
My anxious thoughts, obsessions too...
Call 911 or cut my arm?
That's 2 decisions I'm working on.

My current meds don't help at all,
So I'm about to lose control ...
Autism, depression, crazy mood-
My Daddy sad:"It's junkie food."

I like to smoke, I like my Mom,
My Daddy's smiling all the time.

I feel depressed,it's getting worse,
The nurse draws blood in doggy pose;
I'm 21, one nignty pounds...
Ambitions-zero.., sad romance.

I pray for help to get right med,
My angel's sleepy taking nap.
I need some rest and peace of mind,
So Jesus help me ,be so kind...

I like to smoke, I like my Mom,
My Daddy's smiling all the time.

My restless mind don't give a damn,
I want to be like all of them.
So please forgive me if I'm wrong,
Today,tomorrow keep me strong.

I'm loosing hope, I'm loosing faith,
I'm asking God for mental strengths
My dearest Angel up in the sky
Bring joy and happiness,just try.

I like to smoke, I like my Mom,
My Daddy smiling all the the time.

"Why I was born?" and "Who's to pray?"
This question's open every day.
"Who'll bring me answer, when & where?"
Maybe Archangel Gabriel...

The spring's around,the flowers bloom,
My mind's depressed and full of gloom.
I'm closing eyes, I need some rest,
My Daddy's wishing me the best..!