Narcotics. Английский вариант Наркотика

You were to me like a drug to die;
Without a name, color and dose.
I knew what will happen, if I try,
But still injected myself, of course.
 
Like a spider I wove a web by myself
From the moans, desires, and hugs.
Being in love I was gentle sometimes,
Sometimes I became rough.
 
I gently touched your shoulders and neck,
When stroked your hair at night.
Even lying next to you in a bed
I’ve been missing your lips and eyes.
 
Your green eyes burned through my skin
- Discharge of one thousand watt;
Ties to hold my soul are too thin.
Even my dreams are hurt!

I decided to try an antidote.
Another girl I found in June.
But without you I can’t live anymore,
And I have to come back to you.

I know that you will ruin me,
But yet I have not gone.
I understand, I cannot flee -
See, what you have done?

I can see my life in rear view,
And certainly I will wane.
But the only way to be with you -
Is soaking you through my veins.

You are enjoying my torment thou
Increasing a dose in time slots.
I am aware – it’s my destiny now
Giving my arm for the shots.

Mixing pleasure together with pain
You knew everything in advance.
How to live without your chains?
That break will kill me at once!

The full detox by now I need,
But nothing can help anymore.
You are always inside me;
You're now in my vein’s flow.

I injected a sadness with drugs,
And poison got stronger as well.
Now I'm ready to break and cry -
Because I’m living in hell.

All I want to sleep in my shrine,
I can exist only as ghost.
After all, I have stepped over the line.
I am poisoned. Overdosed.