It seems

It seems to me that someone used to tell,
That someone knew how everything will be;
And it just seems I don't have enough strength
To look at those ones who are judging me.

I'm not that strong to look into deep eyes
Which haven't seen the pain and have no mercy;
I'm not that strong to make myself forget
All things I dream of 'cause I know I'm worth it.

I'll never tell them what I'm thinking of;
It doesn't matter if they beg for long.
My thoughts will always be my own secret,
And it will go with me when I am gone.

Yes, I'm the one who really can keep secrets;
Revealing some of them may hurt so bad.
Sometimes it seems I live my life for nothing,
But I still hope that I am not like that.

It also seems that I don't know myself,
And it's my fault that I don't feel alright.
Things I have lost are never coming back;
Sometimes it seems to me I lost my mind.

Well, I don't care whatever they will say:
It all will go my way, they gotta see.
It only seems I don't have enough strength
To look at those ones who are judging me.

October 2 2014