fading

I'm hoping you don't miss me.
I hope this time I'm gone away,
just to become one day
a distant memory.
But at the same damn time
the only thing I want
is you to miss me.

I know, remember, mourn that place,
I close my eyes and see your face.
Can I go there with someone else?

We'll meet again. You'll pass me by.
I'll whisper: Hi,
and deep inside I'll slowly die
but never show.

I want to feel you in the air.
It's cold but please don't warm me, I'm alright.
My skinny jeans are tight.
I'm burning all I have inside.

I felt the earth stop moving,
and for a moment I forgot I lived.
Away from all the world.
It's worth a thousand diamonds.
Or so I have been told.

I'm left with memories
that soon will fade away.
Someday.
Someday I'll fade away myself.
I felt so strong before you left.
I hope you never felt that way
so that i'm easy to forget.

If one day gods will let me,
I'll fly to kiss your eyes,
when i become a spirit,
and you will surely feel it.
You'll know i've come to say goodbye.
Till then I'm in your arms,
you are alive,
I feel you breathing.
My darling, no, it's not a lie,
it's just...
It has no real meaning.
It's only in my mind.