Deep inside

Deep inside me no real reason for me to stay alive.
Deep inside me for a long time there's no source of light.
Deep inside me I just want to change myself forever.
Deep inside me I've been turned into a cold cadaver.
Deep in my soul have always been a lot of complex issues.
Deep in my soul I always hoped to take a higher status.
Deep in my soul I'm on my knees and pray for my forgiveness.
Deep in my soul I have a little space for new experience.
Deep in my heart I hide my memories of that makes me cry.
Deep in my heart I lost my key and I can't go outside.
Deep in my heart soon will affect the poison that will kill me.
Deep in my heart I give myself hope that I can get freedom.
Deep in myself I scream and I'm afraid my restless spirit.
Deep in myself I'm dead, but I'm afraid that no one see it.
Deep in myself stayed only scary darkness and emptiness.
Deep in myself no more life and pain and fear and madness.
(13-14.10.2014)