Long lost romance

Better not give a damn
Where I'm writing from now.
Cause wherever I am,
World's as dark as a crow.

Air that I breathe is cold
Like a mind of my own.
'Thinking sucks' - I've been told,
So it's been overthrown.

Yes, I don't give a fuck
About what I would think.
Heart says - do, it beats true,
So I won't even blink.

Let's remember the past -
It was awesome, yet cruel.
None of my lies were last
And I broke every rule.

You were there and I knew
That I'm quite close to you.
Feelings were far from few
Which at you I just threw.

You react, that's expected.
And of course what I get
Is just being rejected.
That's the outcome I met.

After that I got hit
By a barrage of thoughts.
Girl, you heard my heart beat,
You know many of those...

Now a bit for the crowd
That will always comment.
Judge, and hell I'll be proud
If you get what I meant!

Sup, all those, who do read,
But dislike once again!
Never was afraid to lead
You to hatred and pain.

Go to hell every punk,
I have nothing to hide!
It's not just when I'm drunk
That I don't have my pride...

I'm a poet for life,
Haters hate all you want.
Poems strike like a knife,
They aren't there just to taunt!

Lads, you know how it feels
When you're close every day,
But you hear sound of heels
Walk away as you stay...

You all know? Nice to hear.
But you faggots don't know
What's the number of tears
I shed after the show.

And I'm not even weak,
Rather too strong for that.
When I go on my streak,
I make too hard impact.

Now I'm biting the dust.
With the power of mine
Tried to earn all your trust,
But I never would shine...

Hard to breathe, shaky hands...
Please, just give me one chance.
I can cut all loose ends,
Bring back long lost romance.

There is one thing I hate -
It's that we're never two.
I don't think it's too late
For that sweet 'me and you'...

When I see that you're sad,
I just can't be dead calm.
When you're happy, I'm glad,
Hiding smile with my palm.

I would die just for you...
You just whistle and then
I'll be right there, it's true.
You do know that I can.

Don't you feel? Love is there -
Everywhere, all around.
I might fall, but will care
Even when on the ground.

Cause I now play it open,
Would you just do the same?
I don't feel very often
That you're into my game.

Do you think I hate you?
Never did, never will.
You were warm all way through
So I held more than still.

Something left on my lips -
Sweetest feeling I'd get...
Went through dozens of trips
So we'd watch the sunset.

Do you think I love you?
You are perfectly right.
Well, I do think you knew.
Bye, my love, and goodnight.