Once you find me sober

Clock is ticking slower now,
Everything around has stopped.
Worst regrets, to you I bow
And no tears are being dropped.

No more warmth, I cannot feel
Anything besides the cold.
Skin and soul have turned to steel,
What was open now I fold.

Grab a drink or smoke another -
Choice of daily life of mine.
Tried to quit but found no other,
So again I walk this line.

Was it him who said 'I love you'?
No, that one is buried deep.
Once again he might break through,
Yet, for now, we only weep.

Wait a minute, let's just hover
Over something I now fight.
See, it's far from the 'game over',
It ain't close to one-way flight.

One day you will find me sober
Then we'll talk, for now - shut up.
Please, be kind to us, October,
Friends, if you're still there - hook up!

Raise your heads and keep on living,
Dodge the cold and dodge the dark.
If one day you'll be forgiving -
That will cleanse my deadly mark.

Wounds will heal and let's be fair -
Change could happen any time.
Wolf's about to leave his lair,
When he does - you'll feel true rhyme.