Affected Reunion 21. 10. 03

     Chronology Of A Dead-born Romance
_______________________________________
     ...Говорят, любовь не умирает даже погребенная под тьмой ужаса, отчаяния и безысходности. Но ТАКУЮ мучительную привязанность только врагу и можно пожелать. Любовь без взаимности, без будущего, без капли света... ...и лишь слеза Создателя медленно падает с небес...

                Affected Reunion

I'm losing my will to create and cognize
Misguided and lost in the deep of her eyes
My wounded soul's aching; I take her caress
But still cannot banish the ghost of distress
One touch of her lust through the ice chasm of pain
Invokes the obsession reborn to refrain
The forms of my sorrow in their frozen world
Which face is forgotten and which heart's too old
My anguish lives on and she never will share
The sinister, apocalyptic despair
I suffered for nothing, for nothing I'll die
And 'twill be the closing no one shall descry

The grace of the past is departed and waned
My epoch is over, it won't be retained
No tunes to remember, nor moonbeams nor charm
And Love is a myth my fate tries to become.
The crosses are towering from the black ground
The winds sweep above and the bleeding hearts pound
I walk down the northern coasts - my very home
Concealed from the light by the saturnine dome
I never have seen my own way to move forth
Today I do not hold the truth for us both
I've buried my feelings and dreams far behind
Some place where the ashes of youth rest enshrined

And what we have turned to in our grievous lives?
Our crying wasn't heard by the Saint One who shrives
We dwelt in our shelters - insensate and frail
And Emptiness filled them to reign and prevail
We've met after all by the bright quenchless flame
And she is my destiny. Do I disclaim?
But only the DARK knows what's happened to me
I shut the dawn's gates, threw away the last key...
And now... should I share her hopes sleeping entwined
In spite of the throe penetrating my mind?
For us and for ever? The voices fly high
And just the God's tear slowly falls from the sky...