I will not run...

I will not beg, or run, or cry
I will do everything how you want.
You will not see me in your life
Now you can stay out of my control
Like you said - I was just a girl
Maturity was not my strongest feature
But All i did- feeling and showing my own
And it was not the best decision. 
You could still come, and scream, and threat
Like you are the judge of my whole life
Making me feeling my deepest regrets
 Showing that all that I do is not right.
Now you can start enjoying your life,
Searching for new to become your best girl,
Making her think what you feel is right,
Making her do what you think she should do.
You can become her master in all
-All of the things I refused to do well
Now you have freedom to do it so
After the words of our coldest farewell.
I will not run and search for the new
Like I don't have any other option,
I will just turn my life in the new
Totally opposite direction.
Now I don't need to wait for the man
Telling me what are things that I can do
I can decide what I think is best,
Mastering all of my different decisions.
All I can say is the biggest "thank you"
You gave me experience that I will be needing 
You helped me to see what I shouldn't do
And helped me to know whom I shouldn't be meeting.