should I still believe in love?

our ways went separate directions.
another love, another life's
unplanned, unscripted brand-new section
without that sweet "you-and-I".
to know - you're doing well and happy
is just enough to go on.
the love was strong but it was rapid
sometimes I think that it was wrong.
I choose my role as a spectator
to watch your life and be unseen.
I will take care of mine later.
it'll never be as it has been.
I lost a part of my existing.
it's achy and no ways to help.
the future is unclear and misty...
something's not told, something's not felt.
if I had known it's so sore
then would I start it all the same?
I think the answer's  - never more.
I'm giving up playing this game.
but you're still living in my mind.
we are together in my dreams
that I keep seeing every night.
this colored picture never dims.
these memories help me keep breathing.
I locked them deep inside my head.
I'm just a shell and underneath it
there's no emotions that I'd had.
but time can heal. I change my mind
for all the things I rose above.
I'm staying deaf and dumb and blind
but should I still believe in love?