Well...

The moment I think about you
I go to another world
A world where you love me too
And where I can never be hurt

The truth is I don’t know what to say
My mind goes completely blank
I have never in my life lost my way
But my heart with your love simply sank

If letting go was a choice
Then I definitely would
But I can't control the strong voice
That's telling me I never should

I have no clue
On how I should let you go
What is it that you do?
That's making me love you so…

Maybe loving you isn’t a mistake
Maybe I can close my eyes and smile
Maybe in your presence my heart wouldn’t break
Maybe I can just dream for a while…

I sometimes wonder if you feel the same
I wonder if you think of me
I sometimes wonder if you silently call my name
I wonder if you'll ever see…

In the beginning I thought it was fake
I didn't think I'd go this far
I thought it was just a mistake
Now I can't stop wondering where you are

The question is do you care?
Do you even know?
Will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?

If for any reason I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is way too strong
For me to simply forget
Some people might think it's wrong
But your love is the one thing I can't regret.


I can’t stop thinking and you won’t begin.
Memories tied me up like a chain.
I lost you without having chances to win
And everything now seems to be just in vain.

I’m sorry for letting you down all the time,
I’m sorry for crying when I should have stopped,
I’m sorry for making our love like a grime,
I’m sorry for letting your heart being chopped.

I’m sorry for making you suffer sometimes,
I’m sorry that now you regret your own choice,
I’m sorry that I have committed these “crimes”.
I acted so mad while raising my voice.

I’m sorry for being the one you should leave,
I’m sorry for taking it all like for granted,
I’m sorry for pain and I’m sorry for grief,
I’m sorry for making myself just enchanted.

No good can come from unearthing our past,
I can’t stop thinking and you won’t begin.
I am where I am, where everything’s passed.
You still are my king, but I am not your queen.

I shouldn’t have acted like I am a kid,
I should have given you something you need,
I shouldn’t have treated you just like I did,
I shouldn’t have told you that you need to lead.

Time keeps ticking, always tocking
Life moves on, never stopping
Never steady, never easy
Always lurking, always teasing
Wanting something, wanting more
Wanting you, just like before
You are in my head and in my mind
You see they say that love is blind
And love is harsh and love is cruel
And love will take you as its fool
I was taken, I am yours
Even if you closed those doors
Those doors are there, just behind you
Turn around, open them, and let me remind you.

Remind you of what we went through…
Acquaintances, friends and then lovers.
Remember… It used to be just “me and you”.
You know it… That everything covers.

The beach and the harbor, ping pong…
These times when we couldn’t pretend
That we are like strangers. But now it is wrong.
Now we need to build up the end.

But why should we do it right now?
I know you’ve been hurt way too much…
It’s not the right time to just bow
And leave it without any touch.

Pretend like we don’t love each other?
Pretend that we don’t see the sign?
Pretend that we will find another?
Pretend that we’re actually fine?

Remember the poem I wrote you?
October two thousand and twelve.
Now I will be doing this too
But now it will stand on a shelf.

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“This is so strange, because i didn’t feel like this.
I feel a wave of happiness from our every kiss.
So many feelings, that i didn’t even feel before,
But now I do and that’s what I was wishing for.

Before I met you, I was blind, I didn’t see the life,
I thought that I was done, that I was dead, but still alive.
I thought that I will never feel like now I feel for you
And that my heart is closed, there’s nothing else to do.

I can not read your mind and know what’s in your head,
But still I hope, you feel the same and that you don’t regret.
Too many words I want to say, I’ll say them by the time.
It sucks that „i love you” is not a proper rhyme.”

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This poem was back then, remember?
Now everything changed and it’s gone…
October, November, December…
I loved you back then. It’s still on…