Silence of males

I know this story almost by heart
Repeating script of non-relationship
Not what I wanted – but what I`ve got
The brand in gaze – the sinking ship

I dream and have the same nightmare
I hear the scream of longing beasts
I try to free them from their pen for fair
But they just stand and stare at the list


Let`s have a deal before it starts to breathe
I bet I know the place where stone darts off
It`s not an edifying story of last falling leaf
It`s about thick glass: you split – it scoffs

At first they smile, they stare at your face
Amazing, penetrating, charming, giving hope
They cross the line to show awaken grace
Their eyes whisper to me: oh, let`s elope?!

It……still…………
Keep on killing me…………
It……still………….
Keep on thrilling me……….

Silence of males.

I took one running as fast as I could
The air was cold and he was so heavy
I didn’t have any water, any food
Decided to rely myself on Heaven

I took one in my hands to save his life
He turned into the shiver and it slipped away
Time was over me it was not even four or five
It was not twilight nor was that a day

Will this scare ever leave my heart?
I cannot stop myself from running out
While lava-streams the period of rut
They perfect mute I shout it out too loud

It……still…………
Keep on killing me…………
It……still………….
Keep on thrilling me……….

Silence of males.



Pavement stinks. Strangers passing coat
Blurred elevator glass is dazzling me
How many scarves were torn on my throat?
How many fingers of mine were mean?

May be I was not indiscreet myself
But I always honestly tried to give in
Now I`m getting deaf so decisively   
Of this silence!!! Too heavy…..


It……still…………
Keep on killing me…………
It……still………….
Keep on thrilling me……….
Keep on thrilling me……….

Keep on killing me…………
Keep on killing me…………

Keep on killing me…………
Keep on killing me…………


Keep on killing me…………
Keep on killing me…………

Keep on killing me…………
Keep on killing me…………