Sleepwalker

I wanted you to rest upon my shoulder,
I wanted you to leave those kisses on my neck,
I wanted you to hug when night feels colder,
I wanted anything from you but not a break…
Now I`m a sleepwalker balancing above,
It seems I never sleep, I never fall in love,
I have forbidden feelings to penetrate my core,
It`s like strewing some salt on nagging sore.
I`m not afraid to live in cage of loneliness,
I killed my fears to live with heart of stone,
I don`t wanna know what`s love and happiness,
I wanna live my life and live it on my own.
Sleepwalker on the roofs without any fear,
Though I was scared of dizzy heights before,
It seems I penetrate unnoticed through doors
But never leave a trace of heartbreak tears.
It seems I`m hardened to let feelings in,
It seems sleepwalker never sees the dawn,
Is there any sense to mend the love that`s gone,
Is there any chance for awkward warrior to win?
I feel my hands are getting stronger,
How bitter pain`s getting easy to endure,
But I`m a woman, not a puppet any longer,
I wanna look in depths of you… 

~Svetlank@~