Active vs. passive

Active vs. passive.
There are many paths; some to light; some to darkness.
Emptiness and entering void are strongly advocated in the traditional Orient; blending with nothingness, entering Nirvana.
What good or benefit to humanity provided those who entered the void and Nirvana?
Only to themselves!
Void or dynamism?
Can’t and should not convince either way, but, can share what, both: feel intuitively and personal experience of mind expansion via meditations and plant medicine.
Dynamism to me and movement of the body and mind provide the powerful shield from the negative emotions and currents that overwhelm me, at times, when enter the higher vibration or the state of mind, triggered by that, which stimulated the Pineal gland.
Once the gland or the 3rd eye vibrates, it is out of my control in passive state.
It is not listening to me. I listen to what it tried to show me but the intellect, immediately, interferes and I receive the fusion- hybrid of the revelations mixed with mind’s games. Where is which is a thin line.
Total passivity leads me to vulnerability and negativity attacking with consistency. I don’t look for it; it enters on its own, as if, I am drawn into a dark lake, slowly drowning in it.
Swimming away from it, is safer to me, but, that requires the mental swimming and exertion of force, which is triggered easier when I exert physical force i.e. began moving either by rocking motion or stretching.
Candlelight or fire are grounding also. The movements triggered, once I open up to them remind me of asanas, yet, never studied by me.
Something guides me into the movements, giving me confidence and opening up the currents of energy within the body and mind.
It is easier for me to control one by the help of the other, as if they are two sides of the same coin.
It is easier for me to open up that safety flow by entering the flow physically. I need to move – not be still! The shield of protection is created in movement – not in stillness in my case. Since one already works, I am not sure if need years of working on stillness, when sense that, after learning to interact with moving energy I mail eventually, learn to be still and retain that protection shield.
Why should I be still and take a chance, where it would take me, whereas, I can began moving literally and among the path, which gives me more protection, confidence, dynamism?
Precise example.
I call her – QUEEN from the Amazon swirls me into feelings and thoughts perceived as reality when I am passive and the same QUEEN opens us Kundalini literally, when my body and mind vibrate in power and nothing negative can penetrate me then.
I tried both ways: passive and dynamic, as much as may move construed by the protocol of the ceremony.
Only some form of dynamism gives me safety and collaboration with the medicine – not, being span by it out of my control.
Should one enter the state of complete receptivity and go where the medicine-meditation takes one or assure him/herself enough control to ride the wave and not be ridden – I can’t advocate. However, for me, the comparison soundly has led to desire to move, to be active, and participate in the mental journey – not, merely, be swirled by the waves.
I respect and study theories, may even experiment, but, would rely on actual, personal experience. I shared mine above.