The Cactus

Intuitively, I knew not to be afraid of what the cactus may unleash in me.  Cautious, but willing to take the full dosage, I prayed in my mind to open up the energy flow in me, asking for healing powers. While I was swallowing the powder, I was channeling its potency by prayers that already were a part of me. The taste of powder was strange but not repulsive as Ayu; so nothing in me was resisting the upcoming experience.
I sat and waited.
In about 5 minutes, I began feeling electrical currents running through my arms and hands. It appeared that there were 5 major lines; all corresponding to each finger.
Electricity intensified. I started feeling a little nauseas but not enough to purge.
The whole body and mind continued vibrating, as if slowly crawling to a higher frequency.
There was no mistake, intuitively I knew that the usual frequency of everyday state was steadily shifting to the higher level.
The unknown began squeezing my soul, but I reminded myself just to pray, breathe deeply, and not be carried away by the crest of anxiety. 
Fear, still, attempted to crawl into my mind but I saw its move and monitored it patiently. Observing fear but not riding its wave gave me the comfort zone to remain, relatively, calm, even though tense deep inside, but, still, not entering a state of panic.
There was no inner fight; just a sheer desire to get the positive out of the experience, maintaining a belief that this time would be different and I would overcome the fear of being controlled by any, outside force that targets my mind, taking a hold of my body.
Avoid the fear, maintain confidence, and make it right – that was on my mind and it was focused to achieve that.
Breathing slowly but powerfully started moving the energy from my pelvis upwards to my head.
As I entered a state of prayer before the ceremony began and that circle of praying non-stop acted as a shield against any doubts and surges of physical discomfort.
Rather slowly, than suddenly, San Pedro has affected something in me that released both: a tremendous surge of energy and higher sense of perception.
I feel that out of all pathways the cactus took, it has stimulated the pineal gland enough to heighten all the senses, slowly enveloping me with strange feeling of  getting a taste of being a superhuman.
The energy flooded me so smoothly that I could not tell exactly what was happening to me, whether I was altered in any way mentally and physically, only knowing that my body and mind began pulsating in a unknown to me rhythm – the rhythm of energy.

to be continued