Suffocated

I`m suffocated in the flow of promises and phrases,
I`m wriggling like a snake under the blanket of my tears,
Love ain`t always path paved with roses and daises,
Sometimes it`s cluster of forced endurance and stifling fears.
 
I feel subdued by damaging despair,
I hurry up my thoughts tonight,
They`re like some magic winding stairs
To frighten and inspire me by dizzy height.

Indifferent moon sheds light upon my window,
With clenched fists I watch the stars,
Did I behave like coward or brand new movie hero?
I feel so weak to heal my heartbreak scars…

Rewinding the tape of burdensome frustrations,
Days flicker rapidly in front of me,
It`s like kaleidoscope of vital hues and fascinations,
The pics replace each other instantly at one, two, three.

Teenage innocence inspired us to fly like swans,
We hovered high under the stars of velvet sky,
We hugged and kissed till scarlet dawn
And thought were meant to share just u and me eternal life…

No one can tell what cat has crossed our roads,
No one should ever know what force did separated me from u,
Still can`t explain who dared to decipher our loving code
And who could mercilessly erase the feelings so true.

Perhaps we both are wrong and guilty
We turned our love in web of lies,
It`s only u and me, we made it tainted and filthy
And hid the crime of love by last goodbye.

I used to be so dexterous like tenacious panther,
I used to show my claws whenever danger crept so close,
I used to be an artful broken glass dancer,
I was matured gardener in kingdom of the only thorny rose.

Now I am weak like ragged clouds full of rain,
I`m so defenseless before the chains of gloomy walls,
I gave away so much of me but nothing gained,
I keep the memories where names of us are wrongly scrawled.

I`m suffocated in the room with sultry air
With teardrops falling on the floor like treasured gems,
I`m like a prisoner of cruelly merciless despair
Where sadness makes me feel like lifeless rose stem.