Gratitude

I’ve learned to be happy every moment of this strange and unpredictable life as I’ve finally found what I was looking for. Last three months were really difficult for me. At first it was impossible to force myself to do something without thinking of you every moment of my life, to feign indifference and to show usual coldness…
But once I’ve promised myself to be strong and to fight for my dreams, and by turning me down you gave me a perfect opportunity to change my life.
Then I was really collapsed and didn’t know what to do except constant crying and living in a world of memories. Such stupid and awful state lasted about two long weeks until I realised that you weren’t worth ruining my plans. Day after day I made myself smile and find new activities: frequent trainings in gym; second special subject at my university; long walks around the city, taking photos of its wonderful landscapes. I opened for myself so many things which I hadn’t noticed during those two years ‘cause I was living only by you and lost myself. And now it was time to recover, to awake from this long nightmare.
So I was living on and one day I realised that life was so joyful and I began to receive pleasure from every day of it. I’ve found new sides of life, I opened for myself people who were always in my life from another point and I’ve finally found a person whom I feel at ease with.
That’s why I want to say you “thanks” and “goodbye”. And now these are not only words. You are free, good luck to you. You’ve taught me a good lesson which helped me to understand my inner world better.