It took all my strength

I made enough mistakes,
I berried my past in the dust,
I berried my past in pain,
And no one will discover my secrets,
And no one will discover my fears
I wouldn’t let anyone inside me..
I better stay alone, but safe..
I will close my soul for every feeling…
I will close my heart from the world…
I have choosen another path…
I know, I will cry sometimes,
I know, I will blame myself from going away that time…
But after pain is gone, I understood – it was for better,
It was for good, it was for you…for me…
And all my strategy and tactics worked this time –
Thanks God!

It wasn’t easy…
But did I know another way?
It took all my strength to let you go..
It took my breath away, when I left first…
And left you to decide …
What is best for you!

I hope you are happy now..
You better be!
And what about me?
Almost nothing new…
I’m trying to work this out…
I’m trying to find out,
What will be next…
I know, I will have more barriers in the future…
That’s why I need to restore my powers
For other tough decisions in my life..
Good thing is – I always learn from my mistakes…
And may be one day…
I will be able to live quite, peacefull life, without any trouble..
But right now…I take it easy…
Day by day, and tomorrow…I will see…